What a day today has been! The roller coaster of emotions that have been playing with me for the past few days came to a head today. I was feeling terribly out of sorts and constantly on the verge of tears so I did something I have not done for quite some time – I turned to my cards. The pack I chose was the Archangel Power Tarot.

The cards which came to me were:

• Two of Gabriel ~ Make bold and ambitious choices! Great progress is possible. Important relationships with people who share your vision.

• Page of Gabriel (Energetic, Brave, Optimistic, Playful) ~ Follow your passion! You are ready for any challenge. Opportunities for excitement and adventure.

• Four of Raphael ~ Seek out other possibilities. Look for the magic in life. Be aware of your own emotions.

• Nine of Raphael ~ Make a wish! Dreams become reality. A joyful time of life.

Now I know that not all who read my ramblings will be much into the Tarot or other aspects of spirituality but believe me these cards had an impact on me immediately. My mind was flooded with images of times in my past when I was so involved with my spiritual work. My mornings of volunteering reiki at 60s and better; my group which I mentored; the development group which came together each Thursday night; travelling all over to give addresses and motivational talks; my automatic writing; my healing practice. My life was filled with such purpose then; there was so much joy and fulfilment in helping others and enabling them to find peace, happiness and balance within their lives. My motto then was “Live your own truth”, my anthem “No Matter What” by Westlife.

What happened to that life? I guess Spirit must have had more lessons for me to learn and more challenges to meet and conquer. I sure have had plenty of both in the years since I moved away from the safety of that spiritual community. Moving interstate, leaving behind my marriage, my friends and the majority of my family was something I felt I had to do. I needed the space to grow and learn who I truly was instead of being a part of someone else. I know that it has not been easy on my loved ones and I am sorry about this though it is true that we all have different journeys and it is not our place to try to interfere with that of another. Had any of them felt very strongly that what I was doing was wrong I am sure I would have heard about it!

With the echoes of the cards and the flashes in my mind I set off to get some sunshine and fresh air on my last day before returning to the rigors of my workplace. Somehow I found myself driving to a beautiful shop I have visited a couple of times called The Eternal Spirit. The wonderful feeling of coming home spread through me as I entered the shop… it was a similar feeling to walking into the bush, such peace and tranquillity.

I spent quite some time browsing, just soaking up the energy, becoming more and more settled by the moment. I looked at self-help books and knew that I have all the material necessary to write one of my own. I have no need for others thoughts cluttering up my mind for I know that within I have all that is necessary to provide myself with a life of peace, love and grace.

My son gave me a Willow Tree memory box for Christmas. Its theme is “Quiet courage ~ always there for me”. He felt it was a very fitting gift for me… I could not agree more and I am grateful for the courage to strive for happiness and fulfillment and am ever in gratitude to those both on earth and in spirit who are always there for me.